This soul breathes

Strip me down 

Naked and hungry

Cold in the 

Middle of winter

Blind

In the darkest of night

Strip me down

Lonely and bleeding

Barely living

In the shadows of doubt

Strip me down

To nothing

But raw emotion

And yearning

To be held

Still the Sun 

Will rise tomorrow

To lift me up from my stillness

As long as this soul breathes

With this body

Love will keep this heart beating

And light spiraling 

Underneath my skin

The matrix of Love

I don't wish to be perfect

I don't want fame or power

I don't long for money, jewels, or castles

I have no need to be feared, revered or honored

I have no desire for higher purpose or enlightenment 

I simply want to know 

What it feels to surrender

To the matrix of Love

The shadow self

We are taught to ignore and shut of our shadow side from the moment we are born. 

We are told it's not ok to cry, it's not ok to be angry, it's not ok to be by ourselves. 

Even before we can conceptualize where we are and what we are to do here, we are cultured to be a good boy or a good girl, to be on our best behavior. And what does that mean?

Not to look in the deep holes in the ground so we don't fall, not to climb a tree so we don't rip our pants, not to dig in the mud so we don't get black under our fingers.  

Not to talk to strengers, or get messy with paint, not to walk naked around the house..... Who is the arbitrer of what is good and what is not?

It seems as long as we fit into mainstream we are good and if we want to go around the corner and poke in the shadows we are wrong. 

Very early on we are conditioned to grow and nurture only one side of our personality, we are disconnected and left yearning to be whole again. 

And those parts of us that are burried and chained to the floor of our souls are fighting for life and causing trouble since they have no other form of expression. 

We have come into the light of our earthly existence, and forgotten about our darkness...

And how can the light shine when there is no darkness?

We loose our shine, our glamour, our joy, we become dull and one dimensional,walking around the endless of circle of logic and reason. 

We mourn and long for our shadow self, and the rare moments of unity happen in secret, when no one is looking, so we don't offend someone's eyes. 

We suppress the way we feel, deny ourselves what we want, choke our words before they spill out of our mouths, and suffocate our dreams before they can fully form into ideas. 

We have become walking zombies, and it's ok as long as we are "good". 

And in the meantime our shadow self is growing weaker and weaker and slowly dying, so that even when it manages to cut through the rightousness  of our every day dealings, it is just a pathetic resemblance of it's original glory. 

There will be no "lived happily ever after" when the shadow self dies, that would simply be the end of all of it. 

Don't try to stuff the "bad" witch or the fire- breathing dragon in the closet in the basement, let them breathe, let them out and watch the magic return to our lives. 

The pitfall of emotions

Don't fall in the pitfall of emotions.
"I can't help the way I feel"! is something we say so often, and yet is it true?
Emotions that arise as a reaction to someone's behavior are learned.
The reaction, the way we feel is just as much engraved and conditioned in our mind as the way we think and perceive the world.
Culturally, we have been molded into not only thinking but feeling a certain way.
Anger, frustration, hopelessness, embarrassment, unworthiness, guilt, they are all tools meant to keep us in the chains of our mind.
Once we fall in the pitfall of the learned emotion, the whole machinery of the mind starts spinning, dragging us under with our patterned behavior.
Beware, and when you feel a negative emotion pulling you under, where you can't catch your breath, say "No, that is not really the way I feel. It's just the way I think I should feel".
All I feel is Love and it is as bright as the Sun and anything else is like a storm cloud trying to cover the brightness of the sunlight, all it is is a shadow...
Observe and learn and don't let patterned emotions pull in the vortex of hopelessness.

Eternal, Endless Love

Oh, I love the way you are guiding me

I embrace your shining light

I am drinking from a fountain

Of eternal, endless Love 

I am walkng  through your valleys

Flying high up in the sky

I am singing over mountains

Of eternal, endless Love

How you guide me through my darkness

How you hold me in my pain

Singing softly in my ear

Till the sun has come again

Gracious Mother, hold me tight

Guide me gently through the night

I surrender mind and soul

To eternal, endless Flow.  

Evil

All "evil" is  just a shadow, a wrinkle in the mind that prevents the light from shining there. 

Release the obstiction and see there is nothing but infinite light. 

Balance

Balance is what we are after. But balance doesn't only mean an equal portion of each force. It also means that as the portions are made equal, the new, balanced combination gains momentum and begins to move by itself.