Don't brace for the storm, embrace the storm

Don't brace for the storm, embrace the storm. Become the storm. Powerful, uncontrolled, pure.
Get hurt without becoming bitter.
Get angry without becoming vengeful
Get jealous without being offended.
Love without expectation or condition
Find joy even if there is no one around
Be weak in front of a crowd.
Don't revel in how much you know or what you know
Become humble
Recognize the existence of another
Respect another's space and decision
Loose your self- importance
Loose your mind in the now
It is the only way to find home
To become one
To be light

Magic

Without belief there is no trust. Without trust there is no faith. Without faith there in no magic, no connection, no existence.
Blind faith is the web that feeds existence.
Trust in what we cannot see, what we cannot touch.
Believing despite all the signals that scream I should't believe.
Conviction that what you do is right even when it seems it isn't.
The only thing you need to mke something happen is believe in it

Love is not something you can do

Those others who go on saying they love you, they can't love because love is not something you can do- it is a quality of your being.

Osho
The mustard seed

Control

What is control?
Getting what you want?
Controlling the outcome of any situation ?
Having control over the circumstances?
Being in agreement with everything around, being in agreeement with everyone around you?
Isn't the illusion of control simply holding back, staying in the place where you think you have control?
What happens when you loose control? And how can you loose it when in reality you never had it.
The only thing you have some control over is yourself. But if you are grippng so tight in fear that you may loose it, then it is the control that has power over you.
There are two options in life.
Let go of control willingly and taste te beauty of freedom.
Let go of control unwillingly and destroy your freedom in the process

Take a deep breath

When you feel like you have nowhere to go invite people in your heart.
When you feel like the world has nothing to give you, give it all you got
When you feel like everything is ending, go back to the things you never finshed
When you feel like everythig is crashing down, start building anew
When you feel there is no one there to hold you, revel in your own company
When everything seems too complicated, take a step back, a deep breath and see how simple it is.

The gap

Pay attention to the gap- the gap between two thoughts, the brief, silent space between words in a conversation, between the notes of a piano or a flute the gap between the in breath and out-breath.

Eckhart Tolle

What sustains you?

"Tell me, can you love life and let love find you when you are lost? What sustains you, what helps you sit without hope and wait, opening your heart to love when you have no faith that Love exists?"

The Invitation
Oriah

What gives you the hope, what keeps you going, what gets you up in the morning after a teary night and gets you through the day?
It is not something outside of you.
It is not something anyone can give you.
It is not the comfort of someone's hand or touch or embrace.
Those are all momentary things that pass.

What keeps you is your own heart, your own love, your own strength and beauty and light.
It's all the love that is inside you that you want to share with the world, it is all compassion that you have for those you care about and for those you don't know.

Everything you are looking for, you already have.
You just have to look inside.

Meditation

Meditation is not finding peace into the silence.
Meditation is finding silence and peace and clarity whithin the noise, despite the destractions. Clearing the mind from inside out. Letting go of all the unnecessary thoughts.
Clarity. Of what needs to be done. Or what is worth doing and what is frivoulous

The meditation, the divine and the mundane every -day world are not separate. They are all one. Interconnected and intertwined.
Find the meditation in the little things.
When you sweep and fold the laundry. When you cook or make love.
Be present. Be there 100 %.
Nothing else matters at that moment.

Be there when you wake up and feel your achy bones without mAking a laundry list of whAt needs to be achieved during the day.

Be there one hundred percent when you lay in bed at night and listen to your breath. Do not distract the mind with endless conversations.

Simply melt into your being. Do not judge, do not praise.
Just be grateful for everything you have been given.
The gift of light and air inside you. Experience it, share it, gift it.

Rejoyce in your peace, rejoyce in your sorrow, rejoyce in being you.

Simplify

Why do we insist on complicating everything?
Why do we add layer after layer after layer of conditions? Of complications
Of stupid games that we play. With ourselves and with others.
Why can't we be simple?
Strip everything of its pretences and perfumed costumes and let the naked truth just be.
Simple is so beautiful.
Natural is so exquisite.
Yet we try to add more beauty by smearing make up.
We try to be more sophistocated by adding layers of complications.
Complicated and complex are not the same.
Simplicity is the greatest sophistication.

But we cannot let simple things just exist.

We cannot let love just be that.
We have to tarnish it with jealousy, possesiveness, pride, hurt, anger.

It becomes so entangled in all these frivovolous emotions you can't even see the love any more.

It is sad.
Society makes up such senseless dogmas and morals that complicate even our feelings.
We deprive ourselves from the things we most want for no reasons.
We miss the best moments of our lives because we are too busy judging ourselves.
That should be the only punishable crime.

We let our morals get in the way of doing what is right.
It is so silly.

Drawing the line in the sand so we can tiptoe around it. And even after the magic of the wave crashes ashore vanquishing the line we still pretend it is there.

We are so busy imagining the line and maintaining it we miss the beauty of the ocean, the overwhelming joy of if. Because it is scary to swim in something so vast and limitless. Much easier to draw a box in the sand and sit in it. Forever wishing we could go swimming.
Yet the the only thing stopping you are those lines you decided to draw around you.
You choose to make complications and untruths in your life because you are petrified of the truth.
The truth is always simple.
But we cannot handle that.

So we complicate it.
How silly and vain our lives have become.

Simplify

Release everything not necessary.
Let go of the fears and anger and doubt.
They are just complications, chimeras that keep you from seeing the beauty of simple love.

Surrender

After the anger comes the humbleness.
After you have raged in a battle for days at a time you realize the futility in it.
The waste you have layed.

But can you arrive at that state of humbleness before the anger. Without experiencing the anger.

Would it be the same?

We know a lot of things. But that doesn't make us wise.
We learn a lot but that doesn't make us better.
I myself preach things i do not practice.

I teach to revel in the breath but get lost in the breathlessness of fear.
I ask for patience and understanding but when i feel misunderstood i loose my patience.
I seek humbleness in others but my "righteous " anger has no bounderies.

I ask for uncoditional love but the love i give is wrapped in many conditions.

Where is the middle ground?
How do you stop being wrong without being right?

Surrender to a higher power.
Accept that you are flawed. Without guilt or shame. Without trying to change it.
Surrender to the universe.
Accept that you are powerless and have no control.
All you can do is BE.
Everything else is untruth.
Anger, pride, power, sadness it is all irrelevant.
You cannot be anything. Just be

Evolution

They say it is me who is afraid of opening, of loving deeply, of trusting completely.
And yes i have been there- when i couldn't look the other in the eye and say what my heart wanted to say.
But is it me who is afraid and running.
I do not run. I simply realize that what i am looking for is not here and keep going. Keep searching for what my heart believes to be true.
Some sort of feeling that makes you humble, forgiving, compassionate. The feeling that destroys your ego.
You don't need to fight your ego. You don't need to kill it.
When you finally taste the love I have felt the illusion of the ego simply dissolves into thin air.
That is why love is tied into everything. Love is the one so often missing component of our journey of self exploration
We believe to be so brave in our search for truth, stepping over people and causing pain.
But we don't stop to love. We never stop and say " wait, this person's feelings are more important than mine". That is the ultimate death of the ego.
From that the Ego cannot rise again.

Everything else is just a temporary exile
The ego simply comes back, may be in a different shape and form. But stronger than before. Because you are convinced that you are the most important. That all there is is you.
The only illusion in this world is YOU. You cannot exist. You only Exist through others. So give them all you have. All your passion and love and trust and fears. Do not hold anything back.
You will see how beautiful it is.
The biggest gift you were given is the ability to love selflessly.
But we have chosen to ignore that ability.
We always want something in return.
Whether it's to be loved back or appreciated. Something is demanded. And that kills the feeling.
Pure Love. It has no goal,no objective.
But we are afraid to let ourselves feel it because we afraid we won't be loved back. And we will look like fools.
Such a silly fear.
How can you look foolish for giving all you have. It is the person that is shying away from that feeling that is being foolish.
Are you willing to look like a fool for love?
That is the ultimate question. Because that is where the ego doesn't stand a chance.
There is nothing to be ashamed of. Be foolish, go to the extreme, beg, go down on your knees and beg. Because if you are not able to do that you are too proud and your ego is gripping you tight.
It is a shame that so many of us go through life never experiencing the sweet surrender of love.
We only find the illusion of love. Some pitiful substitute that we parade around proudly.
It is a medal. A medal that days " I am not me. I am my ego. And i am proud of it" and we don't even realize it.
So foolish.
So no, I am not the one that is afraid and incapable of loving.
Because each time i love to the brim. And each time I leave, somewhat disappointed that the other wasn't ready to see the extent to which I love.
I leave just so I can go do it all over again.
And I never stop loving anyone. All my love is scattered to the edges of the universe.
But the gift I give is often returned. Sometimes rummaged through and wrinkled, sometimes worn, sometimes unopened.
And that fills me with sadness
But doesn't kill the hope in me.
It doesn't kill the love in me.
Even if i have given just a glimpse of love it is sometimes enough.
Or it simply wasn't the right time.

So i go on searching.
And if I never am able to give it all away. I know I have given all I have. I haven't given up. I haven't shrunk away in fear.
And I have learned.
I am always learning how to love.
It is my own evolution.

"The invitation"

When it is hard, i will remind you what you already know: that you can do this; that the courage to go deeper is found by letting your desire grow larger than your fear; that strength is found in your longing to live fully, your willingness to settle for nothing less.

From " The Invitation"