We are home

We can explain and reason that which our eyes see.
We ca pretend we didn't hear when our name was called or when Mother whispered secrets in our ear.
We can continue walking blind and deaf, but can we ignore the longing of the heart?
Can we keep avoiding the call the wilderness in our soul?
The call to be true and return home.
Can we keep sleepwalking and exist like automatons trampling over everything that is sacred?
Wake up in the dream and recognize our power.
Feel the light vibrating through us and anchoring us into Earth.
This is where home is.

Responsibility

Taking responsibility is not a burden. 

It is not a cross to carry. 

It is being responsible for our abilities. 

And for sharing those abilities with the universe. 

Responsibility is not a curse. 

It's a blessing in disguise, it is our hardest and most rewarding lesson to learn. 

Responsibility is not to be taken in action but with the itegrity of the whole being. 

It is our first and foremost respobsibility to be wholesome and true to ourselves. 

To honor and speak our truth and to stand up for what we believe in. 

Not to hide behind logic and reason or point fingers to others. 

Our responsibility to ourselves is to know who we are and what we came here to do. 

Our responsibility is take that road proud and joyful, not being dragged as a victim. 

It is our responsibility to walk this Earthly path in the most honorable and kind way possible

It is our responsibility to others not to mislead them about who we are and to hold space allowing them to be themselves. 

It is our responsibility to voice our needs and our desires despite the fear. 

To voice the anger and despair and loneliness and hurt. 

Just as much as it is our responsibility to express the joy and gratitude, compassion and excitement so we spread the positive vibrations into the  universe around us. 

It is our responsibility not to avoid who we are or who we pretend to be. 

Not to avoid our actions or the lack of actions. 

Responsibility is the fire we step into so we emerge as bright as Light and as light as Love. 

Emerge

I touch and surrender myself
to the Earth
I become one
with my true nature
allowing spirit to emerge.
From these roots I shall grow
Strong and humble
Knowing how far
I can reach
Remembering
I came from dirt
And there I shall return
The only trace of me
The light I reflect
On the world

Human

A bell is not a bell
Until it's been rung
A song is not a song
Until it's been sung
We are not human
Until we have tasted
Our humanness to the fullest

An indian chief whose name I didn't catch

Mess

What we call "dark forces" and demons,and fight so hard against is nothing more but the voices in our head that we try so hard to silence and deny existence.
We try so hard to fit into a category- be it good or bad, right or wrong, righteous or shameful.
We try so hard to be unidimensional and deny the existence of different layers and sides to our soul.

We are not going through this journey so we can say I was good, or I was honest, or I was compassionate, or I was nonjudgemental...
We go on  this earthly path so we can say "I experienced as much as possible"
I was good and I was bad, I lied and I was honest, I judged and I was judged, I cried and I laughed and I hurt, I was proud and I put my head down in shame, I shared and I was greedy, I was selfish and I cared for others. And amidst all that I stayed true to myself.

We are not one-dimensional, but we are One.

The duality of our existence comes from the denial of those sides if us we deem "dark" or unworthy.

In our essence there is no duality, the separation comes from our mind, from our ego, from the desire to be one thing and not another.

But we got it all wrong.

The lesson is not to be perfect or to make it out of this journey clean.
The lesson is to learn to not be afraid of the mess.

To walk barefoot and step in the mud, to make mistakes and to not know how to fix them, to admit we don't know where we are headed and have no idea where is they way out. 

Even more to stop looking for the way out but dive even deeper in the mirky water of human existence.
To laugh with joy a our own silliness and cry till the tears run dry, to hurt and be hurt, to get lost and find soul mates that make this journey worthwhile.
To dance in the rain, lie under the stars and cry with sunset.

And feel the ground beneath our feet the whole time

Dance with the chaos and remain calm in the center.

Let the opposites pull us in different directions and expand us indefinitely, while we stay true to ourselves.

To be true to ourself and to the universal spirit means to acknowledge and rejoice in our complexity, our multidimensionality and even our loss of direction sometimes.

And instead of starting each day fighting to fit into a dimension that  we may have already outgrown, start the day feeling deep in our heart which part of us we want to explore today!

Sing with me, Mother

Wash over me, Mother

Silence my fears. 

Let the rain drape over me

Feeding my tears. 

Help me find stillness 

Help me see through the clouds

Let me stay for a moment

Steady my roots in the ground. 

Watch over me, Mother

As I sit here in silence. 

Let me dig in my heart

And unravel my soul. 

Quietly gazing

Deep in void

Looking for purpose

Looking for love. 

Unleash you wrath on me, Mother

So I can see the darkness of my soul

And laugh at my misery

And my illusions of control. 

Smile with me, Mother

And forgive my weakness

Forgive my strength

Forgive my tenacity

And my impatience

So I can finally forgive myself. 

Sing with me, Mother!

Sing our hearts out 

And let our song be heard. 

Deep in the womb of the Mother

Where all life began. 

Sing with me, Mother!

Wake up the lost souls

Come to stay with me, Mother

So I can blissfully dance in peace. 

The greatest leap of faith

Great things can only come into our life when we make space and open our hearts.
Let go of all that no longer serves or obstructs.
Abandon the patterns and habits built in fear.
Burn in the fire of destruction, free of fear and doubt about what is to come, open the heart to all the possibilities.
Once we make space and trust in our truth blessing will fall like raindrops from the sky.
This is the greatest leap of faith!

Existence

Our existence is not about finding a purpose.
It's about finding humility and acceptance in the lack of purpose.
Purpose without asking and understanding.
Service out of love and not of fear.

Our journey is about finding wholehearted trust and devotion to our wildest delusions.
An eternal infatuation for what is beyond logic and explanation.
To fall madly in love with all that doesn't make sense.
And to be ok floating around without a goal in mind.
Experience the impossible.
Embrace the wildest, darkest part of our soul.
To surrender, to open our hearts to everything good and bad, without judgement.
Trust in the wilderness of the heart and don't let the mind plant seeds of doubt and fear.
Our existence is not a journey with a destination.
It's a walk on this beautiful Earth as we learn to appreciate the scenery.

Twin Flames

To be with ourselves
An with another
Allowing no compromise
Suppporting no resistence
To live our truth
And be supported on the deepest level.

To feel the connection
Like a milky, silver cord
Running from the center of one
To the core of another
Drawing us nearer and nearer
Feeling the call of our own soul
To be whole again.

Can we stand
To look into the delicate mirror
Truly see ourselves as we are
And say I accept me
Not looking or asking or begging
But recognizing
That we were one
In the beginning of time
And time has come to be one again

No longer feeling alone
Walking this beautiful, treacherous path
Feeling there is always another
To lean on completely
Even in the darkest hour
No longer feeling lonely
Amidst a crowd or
In the corners of the world
No longer feeling a void
Deep inside ourselves
Feeling instead
The warmth of the flame
In the belly
No longer feeling cold
On the edge of the world.

Finding the flame
Deep in the abbyss of our void
Yet knowing it has a mate
In another
Who can take you deep
Beyond the veil
In a vortex of darkness
Where simply the flames
Of who we truly are
Shine brighter than the sun

And when the heat of that fire
Licks the skin
And burns the ego
Reminding us of unknown truths
Can we recognize it
And stay with its intensity
Go beyond the doubt
Not running in fear
Not hiding in awe
But spinning with the vibration of light
With all its intensity and power
Quietly sitting at the edge of the world
Waitng for that guiding hand
That seems familiar like our own
To walk down the path
Together again
Stepping beyond the world
Where all is Love
And we are Light.

Time to be free

It's time to stop running

Sit still and feel 

The chill in your bone

Find the light inside

That is guiding you home. 

Time to throw off the blanket

Stand up and walk

Time to throw off the comfort

Find your song 

and leap

Time to be free

Look inside and see

You are 

Everything you've dreamed to be

Caccoon

Wrap me, Mother,
In a blanket of love
Let me sink to the bottom
embrace me into your womb
Let me sink into darkness
Cuddled in a damp caccoon

Giude me, Mother
Holding me tight
To the depths of my soul
Deep into the fire
Where darkness turns into light

Silent devotion

Your silent devotion is stronger than any word.
Your humbling presence is more powerful than any touch.
Your peaceful love more fulfilling than the blaze of any fire.

Ancient spirit

Ancient spirit

Ripping my soul

Guide me

To the path of light!

Ancient spirit 

Calling me home

Take me to edge of reason

to the dawn of this endless night

Ancient spirit,

Guiding me home

Let me step in the fire. 

Circles of reason

Squares of logic

Shapes of existence

Woven with magic

Drawn in my blood

In one battlefield too many. 

Shapes of existence

Mirrors of fight

Shadows of fear

Rivers of light

Poured into my soul

Endlessly seeking the truth

Guide my hand through the forest

Guide my feet on the ground

Guide my shadow through the desert

Guide my breath in this eternal

Dance with death

Ancient spirit 

Show me no mercy

Lead me to the edge

Let my breath turn icy

Let my heart pound with fear

I step into nothingness 

Finally meeting myself

I can't do it alone

I can no longer wait
I can no longer lay in waste
I am awake
I wanna stomp my feet
And dance with death

There is nothing more to learn
There is nothing more to fear
I am standing at the edge
Waiting to disappear

There is nowhere left to go
There's no place left to hide
I yearn to spread my wings and fly....

I can't do it alone...

Breath is power

Breathe in anger
Exhale strength
Breath in fear
Exhale Love
Each Breath is a transformation
Each cycle a lifetime lesson
With each Breath out we die
Only to be reborn again on next Breath in.

The difference between life and death is Breath.
Breath carries the wisdom of the heart to the mind.
Breath wakens up our power and connects us to our true self
Breath is the silver cord that leads us on the way home.
Breath is the transformation,

Breath is our life force.
Breath into our power center
Connect to the feet
Feel mother Earth
Supporting our physical shape
Cherish each breath as if it's our last.

Union

When mind and heart unite to follow one's true path a powerful union is formed.
We are no longer lured into distraction, we are no longer attached to wants and whims, we are no longer afraid of what may or may not be.
We walk the path with a light heart and a song on our lips.
We feel the power reeking through every fiber of our being.
We are as light as sound and as bright as light and no obstacle can stand in our way.
No lower vibration can withstand the strength of our will.
We trust our own wisdom and the wisdom of the Universe.

When mind and heart unite into one's true passion duality ceases to exist.
Once the mind and the heart are one we are one whole being, embracing the feminine and the masculine, the light and the dark,  power and weakness, fear and strength, the yin and the yang, within us, all working for one purpose.

A powerful union within ourselves that unites us with Infinity.

Prayer

Help me, Aincient one

Guide my breath

Into my spirit

Guide the water 

Down my breasts

Quiet the fire

Let the mind rest

Let me see 

When I am blind

Let me hear

When I want to scream

Let my lips 

Be dry

My heart humbled. 

Guide me, Aincient one

Cool the fires of below

Let the wisdom

Wake up

Within me

Lighting my way 

Through the dark. 

Lead me, Aincient one

Through the daze of confusion

Through the maze of fog

Offer a nourishing hand

Let me lean on your shoulder

Let me feed on your strength

Take me, Wise one

Underneath your wing

I fumble and I fall

Tripping on my own greatness

Drowning in my own power

Protect me, Ancient One

From my weakness

From my strength

From the darkness of my ignorance 

From the depths of my own pride

Forgive me, Mother

For the moments of haziness

So I can forgive myself. 

Strength

Strength is total living. Live in full accord with the undiluted multiplicity of your being.
Strength symbolizes your confidence and self-assured expression of your Magician abilities.
It also symbolizes dualistic expression, yin and yang. Accepting our duality is what makes us One.
This dualistic versatility is what gives strength its strength.
It is through a mystical communication with animals that the power of the human spirit is preserved.
Like its ruling planet, Leo the Sun, Strength represents a coming out, a breaking through.
The energy long dammed up by inhibition forces its way out and achieves great success.

XI
Strength
The Tarot Voyager

Sit with the pain

I am sitting on the edge of insanity
Riding the razor- thin line of control
Let it flow
Sit with the pain
Yours and mine
Its irrelevant
Sit with the pain
Dwell on it
Taste it
and smell it
Let it take you over the edge.
Riding wild waves of ecstasy
Painfully honest
Brutally lonely
Sit with the pain
Burn with the fire within
Disappear in the abyss of ashes
Only to rise again
With the sun.

On wings of love

I sail across the veil
On wings of love
Like night and day
I chase myself
Always longing to unite
I come and go
I see and then I'm blind
I feel and then I am numb
I know and then forget
Eternal maze of self obstruction
Can't find my place on earth
I don't belong into another world
I am the shadow of the day turning into night
The last kiss of the sun onto the ocean
I am the sunrize on a drop of dew
Eternally waiting
Eternally guarding
The traveler's soul.
Waiting for one
To help me bridge the gap
To help me lift the veil
Bathe Mother in beatiful light...

Core healing

Heal ourselves to heal others.
When we dive into our core, our most intimate wounds and dark places, where we are afraid to let others and ourselves, we start healing.
Not in any way changing ourselves but accepting us for what we are.
Accepting our flaws and imperfections.
Accepting the resistance and letting it melt away.
When we finally embrace all of ourselves and stand in front of our very own eyes, naked and certain of what we are, of who we are is when we are ready to shine our eternal light onto the world.
With each step we take on our journey, with each layer we peel of our facade we heal another soul just as much as we heal ourselves.
At different stages we meet others, we see mirrors, beautiful reflections.
With each choice we allow others to see what they couldn't see on their own.
Just as they reflect on those parts in us we are resisting.
The frightening places inside of us are the ones we don't shine our light into.
Once we look deep and illuminate the shadows disintegrate.
And there is no place that is left with fear or pain.
We rise as pure love and light.
Allow ourselves to heal, so we can all heal.

In our duality we are whole

In our duality we are whole.
Embrace both parts of ourselves, erasing the imaginary line we have drawn to limit ourselves.
The separation only exist in the mind- labeled right and wrong, good and bad, light and dark.
In truth that line doesn't exist.
The separation doesn't exist.
The limit is only in the mind.
For one polarity can't live without the other and they are both a part of one.
Unite our oppositions, embrace our inner soulmate that we have left in exile for eons of time.
Recognize who we are, without judgement or resentment, without anger or shame.
We are already whole, we just need to look inside and accept it.

Allow for oneness

Asking for help is not a sign of weakness.
Asking for help is a sign of wisdom, a sign of trust and mostly a sign of strength.
To lean on another soul, on another human being not only for help but also for support and compassion requires endless courage and endless trust.
It melts away the ego that wishes to achieve.
The act in itself is a surrender to a higher power. We finally admit we are not alone in this quest, we are not abandoned to fight our deamons on our own.
It allows for softness. It allows for unity.
When we refuse to ask for help and choose to bear our burden alone we resist the oneness of all.
Allow to be compassionate with ourselves and lean onto others.
The more we surrender, the more we unite, the stronger we become.

Present

Being present doesn't mean we are perfect all the time.
It simply means we are awake to learn from our mistakes when we make them.

The thruth is a process

We all know ourselves, we just can't accept it yet.
The journey of the souls is not that of knowing itself- it already knows the truth.
The journey of the soul is to accept its limitations in the physical body and to work within those limitations.
We are born of light , yet in order to grow into our limitlessness we choose to come in this beautiful world and experience.
Experience joy, fear, pain, ecstasy, humiliation and anger, sadness and .... to experience everything.
As much as the body is a limitation to our endless abilities it is a great commodity.

The journey is a process.
We don't just walk down the street to pick up our package of truth and then live it.
At every step of the way we see a different part of who are, and at every step we believe that to be our true self.
The question is: How deep are we willing to go?
At each step we can stop and say: this is where I wish to reside for this life time.
Yet there is always another layer that can be peeled off, another step we can take.

Comfort is not the place where we can grow. Comfort is like a vista. We can take a breath, rest out head for a moment and look at the scenery.
Examine the landscape and see how much further we can go.
And just like the vista we think we can see the big picture... only to stop at the next place and see a completely different story.

Don't let discouragement seep through.
One scene does not negate the other, it simply lets us see more, integrate better, until we accept all that we are and remember our truth.

Be with joy

We can't walk
Closing our eyes
To the heartbreak
We need to feel it
Feel the sorrow in our hearts
And carry it everywhere we go
Allowing it to melt
The harshness of our soul
Allowing it to burn
Our stubborness
And anger
Allowing it to seep through
Our resistance.
Let heartbreak and sorrow
Be our best friends
For until we learn
How to sit with our pain
We won't know
how to be with joy.